near lifeless
well well. hel-loo again. it's been quite a while i must say and it's been pretty long while since i blog. lol.
so where shall i start. hmm. POLY. 1st sem ended. exams were over since 2 wks ago. or was it a wk? ..........
ok nvm. it's over anyway.
so it's e holidays. n it sure is long. a 7 wks break. wooh gna b a refreshing nxt sem.
well not exactly i would say. life became pretty lifeless since e exams ended. god. life's a bore when you have nothing to do. basically i've been rotting at home. playing Granado Espada (GE) day & nite since it's ard e last 90 days b4 it's P2P. well. not exactly "day" either. since it seems that most of the time i spent chionging hovers around 10pm - 4am.
that's waz done at home, in front of the monitor every single day. i'm going GE crazy. it's madness leveling up. hopefully i dn faint at e end of the 90 days.
(ok. i'm starting find that this entry feels pretty lifeless too. probably the person typing this now is feeling way too dead to feel alive. oh god. argh...)
if not for the frequent trainings at htns, i think i'll really have nth to do. it's damn sian lar. wait. not so frequent actually. twice only. maybe i shld increase it. hmmm...
it's really bad if i hav nothing to do. cos i'll start finding crazy things to do. hahaha. LOL. spending money like nobdy's biz is one. which is very bad since my account figs r dropping. need to push up e figs or else i'll b a goner.
n taz where it leads to my next "story". job search. lol.
hopefully this coming monday i'll hav a job to work for 2 wks for adminstrative work. i gotta admit, admin work may kinda suck, but i really cant b bothered tis time since i need to make those figures go up. the other thing is, in fact, i haven really done any serious admin work, or rather the real admin work lar. in a bigger company that is. the prev one that i did, i dn think i would really take that as admin. oh wadever it is. i juz need money n to pass time. i cant b bothered with the rest in tis holidays abt what work is, with the exception of the working hours that is (since i still need to go for training...)
bored. boring. bore out. boredom. lifelessness-craziness.
smthings seem to get worse too. i dno y. but maybe there's too much time for my mind to wander around n keep thinking about smthings. the feeling has been coming back with much intensity. but no matter at this point of time, again i dn wna do anything. i seriously dno wad i can do, n definitely not at tis moment. it's difficult but i sure hope smthing comes out of my effort.
while that is in progress, it's juz bac to near-lifeless life tis holidays. sighs...
