Thursday, October 07, 2010

what's in and what's out

what's in and what's out

haven't been really blogging in proper form. the last was...let's see. the farewell to the firebird. well, that's been about 2 months already. all the other posts are just not really normal english sentences. literature writings, chinese ramblings, and i even typed out lyrics for a song (my own lyrics). well, i definitely don't know if the song exists anywhere else. but at least i know it came out of my brain and i've never heard it before with a tune.

so what excuse can i cook up for not blogging?

busy? doubt so. i'm sure i can find time to blog.

lazy? probably contributes a certain amount.

lack of words? not really either. more like unwilling to speak.

i suddenly find myself stumbled with the disability to speak without thinking on my own blog. in fact, i find it hard to conceal my words. and probably that's why, that's the biggest reason i've barely been blogging.

oh well. back to the gist of this post.
so what have i been doing. like seriously.

august was busy with preparations.
september's been really empty. in fact, i don't even remember if i did anything fulfilling other than what they call, REST. which...had quite a consequent effect to my fitness.

so that's why there's a remedy action called Payback. and that comes in October, which i am in the midst of, now. i must say the payback i've given myself is seriously intense. Every alternate days, it's either gym or swim. and along the way, there'll be runs.

so far, if i were to look at it on the positive side, i kept up to the schedule, except one of the day. and i achieved most of the goals set for those days.

and if i were to look at it on the negative side, my runs are filled with much walking and the goals of my swims hasn't been really up to speed. in fact, of all the swimming sessions, none of it hit the target i set for that day, much less to say overshoot my target. and my right ankle is starting to feel the burning pain when i start running long distances, which definitely isn't good news either.

sad facts. poor discipline.

but at least i realised one thing. and that is how critical a role discipline plays to keep up to my training plan and achieve the goals i set for it. once the role of discipline is fulfilled, determination is all it takes to keep going. of course not forgetting, injuries are definitely not to be taken lightly.

we make choices everyday. but how well do we keep to the choices we make and the words we say? it lies in the discipline we have.

last but not least, if there's a will and you persist, there's undoubtedly a way.
it's been proven. and i'm the witness. the tiniest hope is the brightest star in the dark.