new divide

new divide

new divide or not. i cant find a way to link wad i wna say with the lyrics from the song. in fact, the feelings doesnt match. or rather, wad do i hav to say? gosh. i dn even know why i'm typing tis. ok wadever it is, one thing's clear. the song is great! lol.

hmmm. now how do i make a new divide? put two round droplets of ink on a piece of paper like a colon. thn i draw a horizontal line to half them. AHHH! taz division! but to make it new. let's rotate the piece of paper. hmmm 90 degress clockwise. there you have it! it's a new divide! (did u actually find that funny? u gotta be on verge of madness to find that amusing. *rolling eyes & whistles*)

the final term of an amazingly hectic semester is about to start. after that, it's on to attachment. and that is where the new divide comes in. it's on to a new life soon. the chapter of tis book is reaching its end once again. a lot of uncertainties lie ahead right now by the way i look at it. am i gna hold on to tis past and present moments? or shld i live ahead of time? wad ensues my actions & decisions is changing every second.

humans has too many wants, too many desires, too many things to achieve. but why do we still fight for them? why do we still go so far out for these things, be it materialistic or of sentimental value?

i cant seem to focus on what i want. i cant seem to find what i truly desire. i wan this. and that. oh and that too. and that three...and it goes on. greed is the root of tis desire. yet to a certain extent, it's juz pure hunger that drives the actions. i need a new purpose. i need one direction to run towards. i need one goal. it may or may not be the ultimate goal. but i need only one focus, at least for now.

living with too many identities is tiring. the only way out is to put them all back together and divide them into no more than 2 - a nobody who lives amongst everyone else and one who paves his way towards his purpose.

a worthy experience

a worthy experience.

95 + 92 + 92 + 92 + 89 + 92 = 552

sure is a nice string of 92s. if i move 3 pts from 95 to 89, it would've been 6-in-a-row! (reminds u of poker doesnt it? though poker has only 4-0f-a-kind at the most...oh well.)

NUSIS 2009 had definitely been a worthy and interesting experience tis year, at least for me. though today is only the 2nd day, it's indeed an experiential competition to learn from. Well, i shall take the chance to wish the shooters competing tmrw all the best!

i admit today's performance definitely isnt the most ideal one i was seeking for. but it's definitely one of the better ones i could give today. instead of the usual unsatisfaction i get at most competitions, i felt a different feeling today. i felt great. i felt i've learned much today. i've taken away much just from that 2-3 hrs there, preparing, firing, and ending it.

having shot qualification rounds of 60 shots at an electronic range today was my first. though shooting a 10-shot finals isnt, but 60 + sighter shots definitely is. it's a different situation. the pressure isnt as intense. and there were quite a handful of adjustments required to my routine. digital dashboards showing the series scores instantly of every single shooter at each end of the range, a slightly higher target, no guiding lines for natural alignment, a non-typically spacious table, OMEGA digital clock, an international-class sensation shooting range, and SIUS ASCOR scoring software's inner-ten-rippling effect!

the dashboard proved to b a distraction. but it wasnt major. it's not the main contribution to my average performance. there were 2 major problems today.

1) locked knees over time
2) not daring to pull the trigger (AGAIN!)

i realise my legs get more and more tense up the more i shoot and the longer i shoot. the knees juz lock themselves up and it's really uncomfortable with all the strain. been having tis problem recently and for quite a while now. i'm wondering how i can get those knees to chill. hmmm. the other major problem is the long existing, stubborn and tough-habit-to-kick problem - trigger freeze. my first competition shot didn get fired out until the third time i get into the ready position. and if not for aiming so long, my first series wouldnt hav been 95. it helped in the first series, but it wasnt gonna help in the other 5 series. why? cos i'm taking WAY WAY WAY TOO LONG TO AIM AND FIRE!!!!

but overall, the competition made me make use of an old technique to make sure the weapon is aligned with target each time i cheek-in and it helped! in fact, i hadnt use it for quite a long while already, really looooonnnng. well, that's the good point.

i guess i've much to work on lately. esp my locking knees and the related thigh/quadriceps tension. i accepted and am gladly contented with my performance today bcos for one fact i knew, i wasnt best prepared at tis point in time and i hadnt train much to really bring back the best out of me.

still, there are 2 things to keep in mind...

You wanna be a winner, you gotta believe you are one! You wanna be a champion, you gotta believe you are one too!

And, Hunger to excel is what drives actions! If you aren't hungry enough, then start getting hungrier!