Friday, November 07, 2008

scream

scream.

The day your door is closed
The echoes fill your soul
It won't say which way to go
Just trust your heart

To find what you're here for
Open another door
But I'm not sure anymore
It's just so hard


i was stuck on a major dilemma ytd nite. one that i had to make a decision fast. yet i wanted it to be a good one that i wouldn't regret making. but that was juz a role. although it's not any less important, it's definitely not as major as decisions in my life.

i'm stuck on a lost highway now. one that meanders endlessly. one that nvr seems to stop trudging upwards. one that seems to have only one lost soul walking along it. this highway looks so dark and creepy. even i'm getting scared myself. it makes me feel so hopeless.

it's a rough road that keeps continuing. i tried running. i tried walking. i tried crawling. but i dn know where it will end. and whn i hit the crossroads, taz where i knew i stopped. there were only 2 paths. bcos those are the only 2 things in mind ever since recently. i dno which way to go. so i took the center path. a path that was not paved with concrete and granite but filled with sand, rocks, marshes, etc.

now i'm moving along that path. but i'm lost. i'm confused. my head is spinning. my heart is calling out to someone. my mind is wandering. and nth is working out. i'm juz not sure anymore if i shld keep walking on. i hear voices frm beyond and frm within me.

echoes surround me as the inside of me screams out. i dno who to listen to. and i wna listen to my own heart talking. but even my heart cant tell wad i shld do...

who am i? wad do i wan? where shld i go? why cant i find a way out?

i dno. i dno. i dno. i dnoooo!

i gotta fight tis! there's gotta be a way. i dno waz the right thing. i dno where i shld go.
but i know i can do it! i gotta find that pit stop.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
YES I CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I don't know where to go
What's the right team?
I want my own thing
So bad I'm gonna scream!

I can't choose
So confused
What's it all mean?
I want my own dream
So bad I'm gonna scream!