unspoken faith
it's been long eh. and it's been even long since i last posted a lengthy one.
well, lengthy ones happen literally only when things happen. logical, isn't it?
i don't know where to start. but after today, i think all that matters most, at least at the end of every day, are the smiles and laughters. and neither can i really put my emotions to words now because one side feels godly, the other side feels like the devil is slyly devouring me. how am i even supposed to describe such a feeling?
i don't know if i'm happy or sad. i don't if i'm angry or disappointed. i just...well *shrugs and shakes head*
it sucks.
but one thing doesn't. it's that knowing that there is something you know you can believe in but you just don't know what it is. you can't define its shape or...thing. and it's scary to take that leap of faith and let things fall in place naturally and magically. what are the chances? man! you just don't know!
belief is just that strong a driving force.
damn. how should i continue...
I still believe,
that there's a reason for every act I carry out. (because at least for every planned act, big or small, I hide details underneath that only surfaces in years to come)
that beneath the surface, much profoundness lies. (that's obvious, but no one really bothers beyond the surface. Do they? These days? Anymore?)
that growth in every aspect is essential
that life must be purposeful
I believe..
And I believe that He is watching, reading, listening to these...right here right now.
The only question lies now is, am I gonna take the leap? *deep breath in*
