recuperation

recuperation

well. as u can read from my prev. entry, i'm kinda injured here n there. and now, basically i seriously need my wounds to heal quickly. i mean it. otherwise how the hell am i gna train for this sunday's competition. arh!!! i need superman's invulnerability. grr...

the condition has, well, kinda worsen today somehow. i got up to a morning which i had diarrhoea. it's like wad the hell was wrong. i just get diarrhoea all of a sudden?! i tot it was gna be fine after that. but i think underestimated it. it continues in the afternoon. when macroecons tutorial was going on, my stomach was like some machine sucking out something....eh. dn understand hor? i also dno how to explain lar. it's juz like an overflow of hydrochloric acid in your stomach and it just like corroding inside. get it? if u dn get it, thn 4get it. u'll get it when u have that feeling.

anyway. where was i? errr. alright. i went to the washroom twice. oh god damn it man. n it was like freaking torturing. i dno y the heck it took such a long interval from the morning till the afternoon to happen again. thn in the afternoon it keeps happening. any explanations?

dno wad caused it. but my guesses are 10% - wrong food; 40% - too much toxins from my wounds (cos i didn wash my wounds); 50% - overdosage of NERDS (u know the Willy Wonka NERDS!!!). wanted to do PBA proj, but wasnt able to suppress my condition. hardly even started and we were on our way home alrdy. waz good is BMGT proj is over. well at least taz one thing of my mind. but god knows how it will turn out. MORE BUTS. i have a lot of catching up to do. i hardly even understand the whole of money-related topics, i.e. money, money creation, monetary policy, in macroecons. there's also a lecture on motivation for BMGT that i hav yet to go n listen n understand. (hopefully the link is still there...)

well. for all i know. there's a lot of unsettled work. including e-learning for POA. oh god. with my current state, of cos i wished it would end. just wait till i get bac into my top form. argh....

recuperation is wad i really need. but with all the deadlines to meet, lectures n tutorials to do. man it's gna b a tough one.

somehow, i am still thinking of you. i wonder how u r doin' now...

scratched & screwed

scratch & screwed.

Great. My week ended with me getting hurt. scratches & abrasions. here & there. damn. tis sucks.

Just when I was thinkin' I could end my week peacefully & nicely by settling my 15 page report, god it turns out the otherwise from my thinking.

Went to ECP tis morning, (i mean e PARK itself, not e PARKWAY). Well it was damn early. Getting out of bed at abt 5.30am whn I only got to bed at abt 2+ am. & of cos, I was damn tired. It sure felt cold in the morning, esp. with the bus' air conditioning.

ok. let me get straight to story. went to cycle there. 1st hour was so fine. going at high speeds; thighs get tired if i went too fast. & it seemed nth could happen. yeah. it SEEMED! nxt thing I knew, we were gna take a rest at one of the pavillion near the end of the park. so I rode my bike towards the pavillion....& POOM! GRRRR!

there goes my limbs. left elbow & two knee caps. scratched quite badly I must say. especially the left elbow. even till now the elbow & my right kneecap is still bleeding though it's kinda minimal.

lucky, my frens and public were helpful. first it was a caucasian woman asking if I was ok. next, one china woman kinda passed by from somewhere & took out tis unknown cream & applied it to my wounds. woah. it really hurt at first. but the cooling effect came in after a while, though the pain was still there. thn, two girls didnt had plasters with them, but the concern to ask if i was fine was there. well at least taz nice. waz more was my frens were there to help me. otherwise, I think I would have lost consciousness right there after the sight of so much blood. In any case, I still have to thank both of them for helping me out, plus someone's half pass six first aid skills. hahaha...

God it hurts man...
Even walking has become a problem for me, needless to say running. I dno how the hell I'm gna train in the coming wk for next sunday's competition. arhh...

1st Injuries. 2nd Unfinished report. biz management 15 pg report is still undone. & I cannot get myself to do it cos my injuries are affecting my mind. & THUS, I cant think properly...ARGH!!!

tis is so screwed. Monday's the deadline. Tmrw's a major touching-up session with the group for the report and seriously I need to get the work done.

damn. I need help. I just hope tis wounds will at least clot fully or probably 75%?!....so that at least I can still walk properly tmrw...

bad bad bad...

whn life screws up

whn life gets screwed at almost every corner

i dno waz gotten into me lately. i'm getting really emotional lately. irritated. frustrated. stressed. pissed off. lovesick.

basically my life is getting pretty screwed up recently. dno wad the fuck is happening. (damn. i'll try not to keep spouting F words here n there. grrr...)

tis blardie laptop's processor is getting real slow at times. bought GTR game ytd. playing was fine ytd. dno wad the fuck happened today. keep screwin' up, meaning the game hang for no blardie reason. i mean wad the damn hell is wrong lar. blardie fucking game. god damn it. ARGH!!! there's only 2 reasons lar. it's either the fucked up incompatibility w e blardie vista, otherwise it's e game. wadever. either reason, it's blardie freaking shit.

today. morning was suppose to b for exercise. in which it turn out totally e otherwise. first, i was told e gym at e blardie stadium opens at 9am. goddammit. thn nvm. i was still damn tired cos i slept at 3am plus ytd nite. so i juz slp on lor. thn overslept till 10am plus also. late for management project meeting by nearly 2 hrs. fuck it. afterwhich it ended. i remb it was youth day for JCs tmrw. so i called n ask whether they all wanted to go gym tmrw since it was opening at 7am. n there it goes. thinking that every damn fucking thing is so gna b damn fine. n wad e damn hell happened? it's cancelled bcos there's only 2 pple goin. total fucked up bullshit. exercise bcos of e no. of pple going rather than the purpose of exercising itself.

nxt,
sch kicked off w a blardie bad start. damn bz. kept slping late tis wk. hell lot of projects to settle, in which in tis case, it's still not settle. tutorials undone bcos i'm so tired n packed. thn had to go bac to ytss for e fiesta, which was literally packed with people, but not the worst i have seen. best attraction: meteorite. but i shall not talk abt e fiesta. tis entry aint for it. the fiesta wasnt all fun either. had to go around finding teachers to do my IAC survey. damn. pathetic aint it?

this is really fucked up. life sucked so much at tis point of time. i've been having tis short fuse lately. argh. i'm supposing that lack of slp is causing it. but there's gotta b other factors, like hmewk. stupid.

worse still, my mind is full of her again. argh. although i still hold true my love for her, somehow n i dno y, whn i'm in tis kind of situations, i start to miss her a lot a lot. i dn get it. is it companionship i wan? or is it a confidant i want? grr...i dno. but well isn't it funny, trying to seek a lonely destiny on one hand. & on the other hand, i'm thinking of love, of her. hahahahahahahahahaha *crazy laughters*

there's definitely a choice i gotta to make but wad will it b, i hav no idea.

whn e environment gets so stressed. whn i need someone(her). & whn i know that wun happen. i'm standing btwn strength & vulnerability.