Monday, July 20, 2009

this i wonder

this i wonder.

to the destiny to fulfil, this i wonder.
to the emotions we feel, this i wonder.
to the boundless entities of the world, this i wonder.
and to all the mysteries of life, this i wonder.

honestly, i dn think all this wondering is gonna get me anywhere. worries. thoughts. hesitation. analysis. i've been having a pretty hard time with myself and my life lately.

wadever that has been revolving around me. however way i have reacted to them. to me, there's this sort of disappointment i feel towards myself. thn i start looking back. why is this happening. thn i start looking forward. wad am i gna do. thn i come back at right where i stand and look into the mirror. who i am looking at.

sometimes, it seems life becomes so meek and what you see starts becoming myopic whn problems and bad habits get in the way and blinds you of wad is beyond.

i talked about saving the world. revolutionising it. but sometimes, it juz gets to me that...who am i kidding? the tinge of losing confidence sets in and starts reaping ur strength, spirit and soul apart. i imagine a life of adventure like any superhero fiction. but i, too, wonder if that sort of danger will ever befall this world in my lifetime. or am i just trying to live a life of a story i hav made for myself?

it's nearing the end of my diploma and i'm reliving a nostalgic history of my graduating year in secondary days. and looking at the pple all around me at this moment in time, i just wonder...are they doing what they really want? do they know what they really wna do?

how can i ever be sure if i'm doing the right thing?
how can i ever be sure if i'm doing something for a greater good/cause?

to all tis, i still wonder...