that GREAT show

that GREAT show.

tis is gna be yet another controversial post.
but i guess it's inevitable.
too many observations. too many thoughts.
indescribable.

two things. two words. mercenary. &. selfish.

some pple are juz getting so mercenary tis days. but i guess it cant be blame with today's society. everyone is so fucking practical, so dictated by money. and wad are sacrificed are all the values they cultivate.

but at the sake of stripping wadever and however u behave twds urself and other pple. is it even worth it? take tis scenario for example. tis pple are ur instructors, ur teachers, ur motivators, ur frens. they helped u, they taught u, they hav a heart to benefit u in mind. yet sometimes, bcos of a puny sum of money that needs to be paid to show some gratitude twds them, u dn give in. and i'm not saying it's even a regular thing. it mayb a every few mths thing, every year thing, every few years thing?

smtimes a small gesture goes a long way that u dn even know. but to put money over values, thn i think whoever it is, is such a bastard. whether or not the thing is a necessity, it doesnt matter. unless, that thing is something u really cant afford given ur current financial status. put urself in the shoes of those pple who teach u, would they even mind if it's a necessity to see how much u pay them, so that will determine how much they'll teach u? NO. but there are yes-es as well, and tis pple, they arent fit to be teaching u at all. THEY, are another bunch of money sucking bastards.

selfish assholes. incorrigible rudeness. wad are bcoming of singaporeans? monsters?

tis is wad i observed frm the "morning rush" frm my past 2 wks of work. i take 969 to tampines frm yishun. but every morning, WITHOUT FAIL, that'll b tis bloody grp of assholes crowding together. and whichever bus that they are aiming to take, they'll juz crowd there, preventing any others frm getting in front of them. it's like a barrier. there's a few buses: 858, 969, 965(not a lot of pple rush for tis bus though)

and let's say. tis grp of pple wans to take 969. the bus 969, however, does not reach the bus stop. it stops at the back of another bus. tis bloody pple will juz rush their way twds the bus. they'll push thru w/o hesitation. and that is fucking rude, selfish, & PATHETIC.

so let's analyse, why do they resort to tis kind of behaviour? seats on the bus, is one. wanting to get on the bus so that they wun b late is another. (prolly afraid that the bus is crowded?) wad else is there? i dno man.

but the tolerance to tis kind of attitude has a limit. and such attitude is totally atrocious. dn u think? another scenario would be sg drivers on the roads, regardless of whichever country they drive in. how many drivers these days are those really courteous ones? such a majority are a bunch of selfish bastards, who scold & swear whn some other drivers screws up in front of them.

and my guess is we're in for a big GREAT show, in 2010. esp, if things doesnt improve, singapore's reputation is gna go dwn. and i'm sure those UP-THERE are gna be so damn freaking concerned abt their faces and the nation's one. and wadever i've said arent the worst things YET.

the 'broken' leg

the "broken" leg.

3rd day of IT & e-Learning Fair at Funan DigitaLife Mall.

the craziest, strangest, unexpected, "disabling" thing happened to me today.

slightly after 4pm, i took off frm funan to city hall station to take the train home. and soon the FUN was abt to start. so i took the train to marina bay, ensuring that i hav a seat so i could slp! and there it was. frm marina bay, i slept all the way to yishun, w/o waking up. i was so tired i could not even feel myself anymore. and i nearly miss the stop.

tis is where all the FUN began. i had a split second decision to make. cos i was basically half conscious whn i awoke and i realise i had reached yishun station. so i was thinking, shld i juz go on to sembawang and take a u-turn bac after that, or shld i juz quickly get the hell out of there.
i took the latter. and there it was. POMP!

i got out of my seat. and i fell straight to the grd. and i was like DAMN IT, wad the hell. i couldnt even STAND, let alone walk. i think everyone was looking at me, but i couldnt give a damn anyway. i was trying damn hard to stand up, and quickly get the hell out of the train. my whole body and mind was practically not in the correct state of mind. i felt like i could faint any time.

1st fall. out of seat. 2nd fall. nxt step that i took. 3rd fall. near the pole in the centre of the train. 4th fall. juz b4 i go out of the doors. 5th fall. right outside of the doors, beyond the safety yellow lines. i was so freaking desperate to get the hell out of the train. i couldnt even hear the door closing "toot toot toot toot" sound. i dn even know whn the doors were gna close.

i felt like a total handicap at that pt in time. it was like my whole body juz fall on to the grd. i stand up with 2 legs. i fall right back, INSTANTLY. luckily, whn i got out alrdy, there was tis guy who helped me to the marble seats, with me hopping with my right leg. (my left leg was the one that "BROKE".)

while trying to recover/revive my left leg, i sat there thinking: die liao. i'm a goner tis time. i was damn scared my leg has bcome fei4 (worthless/useless in chinese). i dno wad will happen to my shooting career if that really happened.

basically, wad exactly happened between the time frm marina bay to yishun whn i slept was tis: i placed my lower right leg on my left thigh (chinese call it kiao ka). so all the way for that period of time, i juz slept in that position. and by the time i woke up, and i wanted to rush off. i could not stand at all, bcos blood was totally cut off for my left lower leg. even if i could i feel my leg intact, basically bcos the nerves are still connected, but my muscles were too weak to even support my body.

the feeling was terrible and freaky. but with such events or incidents, i think life is more exciting. hahahahaha

reassessment

reassessment.

tis post was also supposed to be two days ago. that is on tuesday. but same reason. too tired. couldnt type. lol.

tis post is gna b a controversial and debating one.

i've observed some things of waz bcoming of us, humans, these few days. and sadly, i find it pretty disappointing.

there was tis encounter two days ago. on tuesday, after kaka, jor, and me left amk hub for amk mrt station. tis rather strange indian guy came up to the platform and quite politely requested/asked for 2 bucks. he explained his reason that he had some fight or riot with his step father or grandfather or smthing like that. thn i cant remb wad else he blabbered abt and he wanted to ask if he could hav that 2 bucks.

i was hesitant. the 3 of us were all hesitant, in fact. we didn give him that 2 bucks in the end, of cos. and, there goes his vulgarities. was it the correct choice? i dno. there were so many doubtful points abt why shld i/we even give him that 2 bucks. first, considering his story, that means he may turn violent, he may steal and run off. second, scolding us vulgarities whn we did not agree to give him wad he asked for. but thn again, can we blame him for that? wad if he really needs it? but to give someone money with such a kind of behavior, i think my decision will stay as a no.

such behavior, it's like a rotten apple in a whole basket of apples. taz why there are pple who starts to kill one another over small matters. wad is the world coming to? looks like that big dream of mine will need to take a major change of plans.

thn again. another scene made me analyse again. i was training today. in the range. there were tis grp of npcc shooters. (i shall not name which sch they were from). they were hardly serious. some were but most werent. fooling ard. endangering their own safety and others ard them. not handling a weapon properly, treating it like a toy. WHAT IS THIS? their t-shirts has a motto behind saying that they'll always strive to be the best. but if that is the best, thn i think if it's the worst, everyone else would have been shot and died.

the way i see it. there's a really major need to reassess how i shld really change or influence pple.

these cadets are now young. but that doesnt mean they can play ard without being conscious of safety. and wad if whn they grow up with or w/o being guided, and carry that kind of attitude still, isnt that worrying and unsafe? (thn there'll b more men carrying rifles out of the camp, terrorists-like pple. etc. is that wad the world will bcome in the future?)

thn i think abt the generations of our future. batch by batch, year by year, i can hardly see a clear road anymore and i feel great disappointment. so many pple tis days cant take much of hardships. some leaders trying to take the soft approach in every blardie way. but whn it doesnt work, those idiots juz refuse to take the hard way. where's the resilience and endurance in our followers, in our people, in us, humans? no wonder pple are saying today's generation are too pampered, and they cant take even a little hardships as compared to the past generations.

is it that bad? does everything hav to seem so hopeless? if there are that many pple that are tis way, thn i think i can alrdy c the end of the world coming.

tis is only a small observation. there's still so many more observations that are needed. the nation, and beyond. going all over the world. looking at them. observe and analyse.

i sure hope things will be more optimistic than these.