exhaustion

exhaustion.

oh god. man, am i tired!

whoa. hav been slping past 4am the last 2 days, and seriously whn i wake up, i could juz fall easily back on the bed again. and i seriously doubt slping at tis kind of time will in any way aid in my recovery, instead it might get worse. so...GOTTA SLP EARLY!!!

but it seems difficult to do so though. with the amount of content i hav to read up for both Computer Info Processing (CIP) & Network Server Systems (NSS), it's pretty tough to slp early. in fact for the past 2 days, i haven done any reading up on the text. i'm seriously lagging behind. damn. not to mention, i still hav a biz communication presentation to prepare for tis fri. slide content is easy to do, and i hav done it alrdy. in fact i done 2 of it. one on shooting in powerpoint. and the other one on meteor showers in a flash player. having a hard time deciding which to present though.

taz for the content part. but wad abt the talking part?! my slides having aint no text. they're all pictures or super short clips. taz wad i've gotta prep. gotta crack my brains and think how to talk in a super great amazing way! WAHAHAHA! but seriously, my brain is lacking ideas tis few days, somehow, that is. or rather i'm more worried i cant get things across in an interesting manner.

alrite. taz hmewk.
as for training, it was tiring today. for 1 obvious reason:
I'M ALREADY THAT TIRED!
but still, i went down to HTNS to train.

hav been training prone a few wks now, and i find that there was some improvement today. for example, my endurance went up to 30mins long for my 1st round proning. but i couldnt bare the numbness in my hand for the 2nd time. only stayed in prone position for 20 mins for the 2nd round. even so, i felt good about today's training. maybe the break i had helped much. hmmm...

well. taz a wrap i guess.
today's a long day. i need some nice rest...phew...

the worst start

the worst start.

alright. 1st wk of sch for sem 2 started. but it aint any nice for me to begin with. it's prolly one of the worst starts i hav for sch. woke up that monday, with a throat feeling so like shit, and i knew smthing bad was coming. in fact, i could feel the heat brewing in me b4 monday. juz that i didn expect it fall SO NICELY on the 1st day of sch.

the next few days, or rather the whole blardie wk spent was like so dead for me. i can hardly get any feeling to really focus in my studies. darn it. tis sucks big time. even till today.

at least now i'm starting to feel better, almost on the brink of full recovery. abt 70%-80% maybe?(i decide to strike that out. cos everytime i say that kind of thing, i hav a very high chance of having a FULL relapse!) otherwise, i dn think i'll be here blogging. i'll still be walking ard like some living corpse.

man. i really wonder smtimes how the hell i actually was so determined to fight thru so many flu viruses for the past few yrs, always refusing to seek any treatment or take medicine. come to think of it, i feel really tired, somehow, after tis many battles. oh & btw, tis time round, i doubt it's a viral flu, rather it's a pretty bad sore throat, REALLY PRETTY BAD!

for the whole of tis wk, i've been trying pretty hard to recover, and i think there's really one person i muz thk. haha. esp. for the Hacks sweet. oh, i think it's obvious enuf with that "sweet part". hahaha. thks a lot.

1st wk took off with such a bad start. wad'll 2nd wk b for me? moreover, i haven done any tutorials thru out tis wk. omg. *head banging on the wall!!!*

*half-opened eyes* i feel very slpy. too much energy used in the effort to recover i guess.

incomparable passions

incomparable passions

passion for shooting is one thing on its own. passion for love is too.

noticed she went offline a while ago. yet i was surprised i did not notice her coming online. it's been so difficult to see her online tis days with smthing big coming her way.

took a look at some new photos she posted. and i was reminded again. reminded of her images that was always in my mind. with such a long period of zero contact face to face, i really do miss seeing her in person. the only other way seems to be only looking at her photos, but it's different. the feeling. the passion. those words that i nvr dared to tell her in person. there's too much to it...

looking at her smiles, facial expressions in the photos, she prolly seems happy enuf. hopefully that is so, so at least i can put my heart at ease.

so many questions, so many wonders. i really wonder how she'll perform, wad she's gna do after that...etc.

haven been doing much for her the whole year. or rather, didn had much of a chance to do so. i guess, at tis point of time, the only thing i could wish for her, is luck and believing. May all the luck in the world help her to perform, as well as, the believe that i hold for her. i've been believing in her, and hopefully she believes in herself too. the rest, is up to her now.

biathlon shoot. 7 Oct 2007.

biathlon shoot. 7 Oct 2007.

alrighty! told ya i'll b back in 2 days time to blog again. heh.

ok. so the biathlon shoot was today. and it ended quite disappointing for me in terms of the scores. but oh well, as much as i feel disappointed, i'm still feel quite glad.

woke up to a bad start tis morning. was freaking tired and i was really reluctant to get out of bed. *sleeping & lazing away* hahahaha. by the time i left my house it was already around 8.05am? (prolly ard that time.)

had to get some food b4 i went dwn to htns. unfortunately, Four Leaves at Northpoint wasnt open that early, and neither did Delifrance had much of a selection of bread. so, headed to woodlands via bus. (obviously lar, got bus concession. dn take bus thn take mrt meh?) luckily, BreadTalk had some sausage rolls. HEHEHE...

waz more interesting was...there was someone who stole a muffin from BreadTalk and NO STAFF NOTICED IT! but prolly the cctv shld hav caught it. the sad thing is, it's an old lady. she seems kinda poor and hav been hungry for days. cant blame her lor. but it's quite surprising lar.

ok. so 2nd bus journey towards HTNS. and after that it's a long story of the preparation, thn start of competition....the dreadful 5 hrs.

so the story is. blah blah blah blah blah blah....hahahaha (told u it's long alrdy. wan the story? get from me in person. dn ask me to type it out. i'm too lazy.)

no story. but there are some interesting happenings, prolly related to me only. couldnt really b bothered abt the other shooters. didn had much time to look ard and c waz happening. but even whn i did, i dn c any interesting things abt the others.

basically one of the fastest number of shots i've ever done. it was ard 17-18 mins left to end time. and i was like 50 more shots away. (for air pistol btw. not air rifle. i would've been dead if it was for rifle. ha.)

but of cos, 20 shots was done quite fast. & with 10 mins left for my 30 shots!!! AH!!! but still i finished shooting. WAHAHAHA. quite a crazy thing, i must say. haha. even during trainings. the fastest i did for 100 shots was 40 mins. PHEW!

well. in the end. no prizes for me. position unclear(didn bother to count also). but got COP.

reflecting back, i was actually more disappointed with my timing for rifle. it seems a little too slow. and there was a total misfire, giving me a zero. but i think that series avg around 80+. lowest series for rifle was 85(two series were 85). so the whole rifle score was 1822/2000. but pistol was way bad. 1200+++/2000. *sighs* my starting was quite bad. it seemed my right hand like kinda shrink, for some weird reason lar. and i had to find means to enlarge it. LOL!

but nvm. it's over now. come nxt yr. i'll start 2 mths earlier for pistol. MUAHAHAHA. seriously speaking, my pistol really needs a whole lot of improvement...

wad will it be...

wad will it be...

finally after almost a dreadful month of training for the biathlon shoot. it has ended today. phew. it sure wasnt easy training for tis shoot. i think i've gotten quite shagged from all tis trainings. taz ONE. the other thing is bcos the holidays has been so darn boring! (AGAIN. if u've been reading, my posts hav been emphasising tis point yet again and again. haha).

now u know why tis is a dreadful month for me. zzzzZZZZ...

ok. so biathlon shoot is in 2 days time. tis sunday. 200 shots of rifle and 200 shots of pistol in 5 hrs. how well am i gna do? i've got totally no idea. (well taz obvious right, since it's my 1st time shooting it)

but on the all, i can say, my pistol shooting has definitely improved. hahahaha.
and yes! sch's starting in another wk. and starting from next wk, i'll start training up my prone position. ha.

dn ask me why i feel so excited abt sch starting. cos i myself dno why. it's the total opposite of how i feel whn i was in secondary sch. the only other reason i can find is, tis holidays cant get any better than whn i'm in school.

well. will b back in 2 days time. let's c how's my performance.
'til thn...ciao!