whn life gets screwed at almost every corner
i dno waz gotten into me lately. i'm getting really emotional lately. irritated. frustrated. stressed. pissed off. lovesick.
basically my life is getting pretty screwed up recently. dno wad the fuck is happening. (damn. i'll try not to keep spouting F words here n there. grrr...)
tis blardie laptop's processor is getting real slow at times. bought GTR game ytd. playing was fine ytd. dno wad the fuck happened today. keep screwin' up, meaning the game hang for no blardie reason. i mean wad the damn hell is wrong lar. blardie fucking game. god damn it. ARGH!!! there's only 2 reasons lar. it's either the fucked up incompatibility w e blardie vista, otherwise it's e game. wadever. either reason, it's blardie freaking shit.
today. morning was suppose to b for exercise. in which it turn out totally e otherwise. first, i was told e gym at e blardie stadium opens at 9am. goddammit. thn nvm. i was still damn tired cos i slept at 3am plus ytd nite. so i juz slp on lor. thn overslept till 10am plus also. late for management project meeting by nearly 2 hrs. fuck it. afterwhich it ended. i remb it was youth day for JCs tmrw. so i called n ask whether they all wanted to go gym tmrw since it was opening at 7am. n there it goes. thinking that every damn fucking thing is so gna b damn fine. n wad e damn hell happened? it's cancelled bcos there's only 2 pple goin. total fucked up bullshit. exercise bcos of e no. of pple going rather than the purpose of exercising itself.
nxt,
sch kicked off w a blardie bad start. damn bz. kept slping late tis wk. hell lot of projects to settle, in which in tis case, it's still not settle. tutorials undone bcos i'm so tired n packed. thn had to go bac to ytss for e fiesta, which was literally packed with people, but not the worst i have seen. best attraction: meteorite. but i shall not talk abt e fiesta. tis entry aint for it. the fiesta wasnt all fun either. had to go around finding teachers to do my IAC survey. damn. pathetic aint it?
this is really fucked up. life sucked so much at tis point of time. i've been having tis short fuse lately. argh. i'm supposing that lack of slp is causing it. but there's gotta b other factors, like hmewk. stupid.
worse still, my mind is full of her again. argh. although i still hold true my love for her, somehow n i dno y, whn i'm in tis kind of situations, i start to miss her a lot a lot. i dn get it. is it companionship i wan? or is it a confidant i want? grr...i dno. but well isn't it funny, trying to seek a lonely destiny on one hand. & on the other hand, i'm thinking of love, of her. hahahahahahahahahaha *crazy laughters*
there's definitely a choice i gotta to make but wad will it b, i hav no idea.
whn e environment gets so stressed. whn i need someone(her). & whn i know that wun happen. i'm standing btwn strength & vulnerability.
