unspoken

unspoken

in this silence
i think of you
i imagine of what could have been
but thoughts were never loud in nature

in this silence
i dream of you
i live in the vivid life of my own 'reality'
but dreams. are they a reflection of reality?
or something else...

in this silence
i kept quiet
in this solitude
i felt the biting freeze

in these solitary moments
i'm confined to my thoughts
without a compass
the reflections i see
are but just blurs

principles betrayed
emotions suppressed
sensitivity in disarray
and i'm causing hurt without a conscious mind

i'm shouting loud in mind
but i guess, it's good to leave it that way
keeping much words unspoken...

a forgotten soul

a forgotten soul

so shall i be.
a forgotten soul.
abandoned once and again.
never truly important.
or am i?

the phoenix flames die out
the surrounding air turns cold
the only thorough way to be void of all happenings
is to turn my back against all mankind.

and so i shall.
with no reason
nor belongings
to hold me back.

the last of me
that you'll see
is no more than my shadow
in the dark.

the day will come
when you least expect it.

你不知道的事

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛，才学会飞行？
夜空洒满了星星，但几个会落地？
我飞行，但你坠落之际

多的是，你不知道的事。。。

不知是因为走出了火凤的阴影，或者是渐渐地失去了斗志力，我觉得我越挣扎我越累。
可惜的是，确实多的是，你不知道的事。

最终，我只期盼那一天。
以预备了不少与坚持的等待。。

就在那么一天。。。

我不能放弃
不到最后一分钟
每时每刻，都是充满着一线的希望

加油。。。

bring me to life

bring me to life

the phoenix spirit will continue to live within me...

but it's time. maybe almost time. to change. this identity.
i'm walking out of this fire. to re-inject the purpose that once made me, me. along with a new identity.

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb
without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

maybe this is a trying time for me to grow. a time for me to learn...
my destiny doesn't lie here. i know it. i feel it. it's too strong, it's undeniable.
i don't know who i'll be. i don't know what's this new identity. but i shall stick rooted to my principles of life. do not be swayed. do not be tempted. because it's what makes you...YOU!

most imptly, delete the phrase "give up" from your dictionary, if it ever existed.

letting go is never easy. this mythical bird has stuck with me through the toughest times. renewed me, again and yet again. but choosing to move on, may bring about new strengths and undiscovered potential.

goodbye phoenix.