fallen. once again.
from the plateaus i rise. and i thought it would continue that way for a while. but no it didn't. expectations always seem to fall short when you think you're getting better. or maybe expectations just place an extra layer of pressure that's invisible to the conscious mind.
in the recent months, i know i was improving and getting better. but everything right till the past few weeks, just seem to come alive and turn my world right back to how it was - upside down. it's hard not to sigh. seriously.
wondering what happened, yet one just have no clue. trying to pinpoint the reason or cause, yet there's no where to trace back from. i don't know exactly how i'm feeling already. tired? or maybe not... challenged? then again..maybe not too... it feels really weird inside out. i can't seem to stay put and stabilize what's within me.
and yet, it feels no where near a struggle.
but i've fallen, undoubtedly, once again, back on this barren plateau..
i think i'll just go to sleep....
