Tuesday, June 23, 2009

new divide

new divide

new divide or not. i cant find a way to link wad i wna say with the lyrics from the song. in fact, the feelings doesnt match. or rather, wad do i hav to say? gosh. i dn even know why i'm typing tis. ok wadever it is, one thing's clear. the song is great! lol.

hmmm. now how do i make a new divide? put two round droplets of ink on a piece of paper like a colon. thn i draw a horizontal line to half them. AHHH! taz division! but to make it new. let's rotate the piece of paper. hmmm 90 degress clockwise. there you have it! it's a new divide! (did u actually find that funny? u gotta be on verge of madness to find that amusing. *rolling eyes & whistles*)

the final term of an amazingly hectic semester is about to start. after that, it's on to attachment. and that is where the new divide comes in. it's on to a new life soon. the chapter of tis book is reaching its end once again. a lot of uncertainties lie ahead right now by the way i look at it. am i gna hold on to tis past and present moments? or shld i live ahead of time? wad ensues my actions & decisions is changing every second.

humans has too many wants, too many desires, too many things to achieve. but why do we still fight for them? why do we still go so far out for these things, be it materialistic or of sentimental value?

i cant seem to focus on what i want. i cant seem to find what i truly desire. i wan this. and that. oh and that too. and that three...and it goes on. greed is the root of tis desire. yet to a certain extent, it's juz pure hunger that drives the actions. i need a new purpose. i need one direction to run towards. i need one goal. it may or may not be the ultimate goal. but i need only one focus, at least for now.

living with too many identities is tiring. the only way out is to put them all back together and divide them into no more than 2 - a nobody who lives amongst everyone else and one who paves his way towards his purpose.