the transition or...
finally, it's the last of the exams i'll ever have after 13 years of education in my 19 years of life. well, probably at least for the whole of another year. oddly, i'm not feeling any tinge of relief nor joy exuding from myself. and that is definitely not a good thing.
it's only a week of holidays before my internship starts. i really need some fresh air to breathe. Singapore's air is getting rather stale and full of stress as i breathe it in every two seconds. (but on an honest side note, the air is really getting dirty. pollution!) well hopefully, i'll have enough time to get some fresh natural air.
and then internship starts, what's it gonna be? i can only say i'll take whatever comes. sigh. the last time i said that phrase: "i'll take whatever comes", that was....i dont even remember when. but it definitely was a pretty confident phrase. Still is? Perhaps. i'm sounding pretty negative doesnt it? why am i not surprised? hur. blowing out a struggling fire was something i never expected i would do. but at least it removes one burden off the mind.
ending the last semester of a diploma education with an internship marks the start of working life as well, not on its entirety but similar. the future seems kinda meek and blur. entering into an entirely new environment is gonna feel different somehow. although there were past working experiences, this feeling i'm getting just doesnt match.
and then there comes a choice right now. probably the toughest choice i hav ever contemplated upon for the whole of my life until now. the longest ever consideration i hav given to a choice. the most times of hesitation i have gone over again and again to decide (and still doing so). and up till now, i still dont know if it'll be the right choice; if consequences will overweigh benefits, if there is even any benefits. and pardon me seriously, i know my words arent portraying much of a positive attitude. (if you, as a reader, find that the negativity [although subtle but present] in the content, is getting on your nerves, you could always press Alt+D on a Windows computer now and type someone else's blog address)
on a more random note, was chatting and the word 'start' suddenly struck me. i stumbled back on my memories. back on why i started this blog. the starting;the beginning. inevitably, i'm back on my train of thoughts again. never failed as a specialty or my forte, i presume.
