one year later & one year ago
HOLD YOUR THOUGHTS FIRST! now let me explain the title. first, it's not just a random title. second, it has no link or relation to the previous post. totally none with regards to the content. third, well it just so happens to be a coincidence! hahaha. okay okay...that's not the explanation. then again, it actually is. if you re-read my sentence: 'now let me explain the title', so whatever sentences that followed is actually the explanation! but if i change my sentence to: 'now let me explain WHY the title', AHHH HAAAA! then it becomes different. (now, that is the beauty and cunningness of English Language. hahahahaha)
alrights. done with crapping. if you don't comprehend whatever's above. don't try too hard. there's no point trying to understand it, unless you have too much time on your hands and probably even legs. (gosh. what is becoming of me??? my amount of nonsense is increasing! O_O)
back to the main point now!
hmmmm. a year ago in October, i stopped. a year later in the exact same month (minus one day), i start again.
don't understand? i'm talking about shooting 50m smallbore(SB) rifle prone here. i stopped my training and participation in SB last year because i couldn't cope with the financial factor. it was draining my pockets out, pretty badly. and i don't think it's going to get any better this time round either. BUT i've made better plans this time. at least that's the way i see it now.
it's been a year. and yes, one full year! today's the October monthly shoot. and i only had ONE training last week. it's ONE after resting for one W-H-O-L-E year. (okay wait. instead of full or whole year. more emphasis and attention seems to be on the ONE. lol.) okay. never mind, let's just move on...
today, opens up a new peak for me. today, is the new beginning for me in this event. today, is the mark of improvement. (and no, i'm not gonna type any more todays, just in case i sound like i'm advertising for Today!)
i think i better dive into the details of today's shoot or it'll never come.
92 + 90 +95 + 91 + 97 + 96 = 561
yes. it's a new personal best...for prone, ever since last September's one which was 555. but the consistency still isn't there. it's the lack of training. position wise was getting better. i could better understand the grasp of a good position with least tension today. at least, i know now what is to ensure both(both as in right and left) shoulders and arms are relaxed. sometimes unconsciously, my left hand will apply strength to control the rifle. but when i checked my shot routine each time today before engaging in taking aim for each shot, i felt the difference of applying strength and just being relaxed. well, letting go and relax sure did alter the feeling of comfort on my left wrist. but it's for the better. haha. (i mean come on, in one of such torturous positions in shooting, what comfort is there to really talk about anyway...so might as well enjoy it.)
the other thing was my goal today wasn't really to shoot much a good score. and honestly, i didn't had much of a hope by the looks of my sighting shots. it was so dispersed. the grouping was pretty bad, in fact. and yea, my main goal today was really to just make sure i finish shooting a total of 60 shots plus sighting shots (which i shot about...18 shots) in 1 hour 30 mins. and guess what? i finished in 1 hour and.....8 mins! and yes! i felt great!!!! something much much different from the way i felt last year when i wasn't able to finish the competition in Aug and Oct!
the interesting thing here today was. i made a mistake in the number of shots i had to shoot. Not literally in the number count. But visually. because one box of bullets has 50 bullets. so i don't know what or how i was thinking but...somehow my mind was thinking there were 40 bullets on each holder. so the whole competition routine that i had in mind today was something like this: 10 mins preparation time. check the watch. keep track of the time. competition starts. check the watch again. remember the time. aim to finish within 1 hour including sighting shots. take rest for every 20 shots.
and so it began. i started shooting my sighters. bang bang bang...then i went on to start my competition shots without any rests before. (rests as in getting up and out of the position and rest) then i got up after shooting 20 shots into the competition. rested a while. check the time again. it was...40 mins into the competition. so i had 50 mins left for 40 shots more. then during the first 20 shots, i realized i totally forgot to factor in the target changing time for every shot! and i was like thinking: "shit...haw seh liao. never mind never mind. whatever it is, just chiong to finish."
so i rested, then i got back down into prone position and started again! now the trick or rather, the weird thing that happened here was that, i know i still had 40 shots to shoot and i recognized that i didn't had much time left after resting (but actually, i thought i didn't had much time left because of the bullets, with regards to the way i perceived the appearance) so i modified my competition routine. instead of resting after every 20 shots, it seemed that i just had to finish this next 40 shots all at once. but because the initial routine was to get up after every 20 shots, so when i looked at the holder for the bullets (which my mind supposedly segmented into 20 shots in the head already), so i thought the current holder had 20 remaining and i had to use another 20 from the other holder.
ok now. recall one box holds 50 bullets right? so there are 2 boxes. i used one of it for 18 shots of sighting shots. and when i started my competition. i switched to a full new box of 50. so if you do the math, after shooting my first 20 competition shots, i should have 30 left! not only 20! (my mind got mixed up and thought there were only 20!) so when i finished my last actual shot in reality, i thought i haven't finish and i continued to load! then i was like thinking again: "quick quick change target! time is running out!" *the human target changer (just in case you're wondering if it's a machine) takes the last target out* then i was like: "EH?! finished already ah? ehhhhh?!?! really meh? i thought still got 10 more shots? *confused*"
so i looked back down at my bullets. and....OOOHHHHH. my mind segmented the number wrongly. tsk!
okay. i just realized i'm not even sure if the whole explanation for this supposed-to-be-humorous weird happening is clear and understandable. but if you do understand it after reading and you're like hahaha-ing away, congratulations! if you do understand it after reading and you're not like hahaha-ing away, never mind, be consoled that you actually did understand what a chunk of messy details. but if you are none of the above 2 scenarios, then just forget it. just close the window man. stop reading. you're probably too confused already. really! (i'm sure i don't have to direct you to the CROSS sign on the top right hand corner of window, do i?)
okay. done. it's a really long post, full of crap. Totally! it's either i'm crazy, tired or maybe my hurting back is causing this unusual effect on my brain.
