bad days ahead

bad days ahead

i'm not waking up to good mornings.
i'm dreading my start of the day.
and it sucks. a lot.

and i don't know when it's gonna be okay again.

失望

失望

失望终究会变成绝望吗？
我不知道。。。

早知如此，又何必当初？
怎么了？我是不是开始后悔了？
不。。

我只是。。对我周围的一切的事物感到好失望
连续一次又一次的失望。。
真的好痛苦哦

我在这岛上生存的余地，在此如今呢?
我真的好恨自己对自己造成无用的伤害。。
矛盾的思想，无法自拔。。

生命在此有必要一直受苦吗？
哎。。。

unspoken

unspoken

in this silence
i think of you
i imagine of what could have been
but thoughts were never loud in nature

in this silence
i dream of you
i live in the vivid life of my own 'reality'
but dreams. are they a reflection of reality?
or something else...

in this silence
i kept quiet
in this solitude
i felt the biting freeze

in these solitary moments
i'm confined to my thoughts
without a compass
the reflections i see
are but just blurs

principles betrayed
emotions suppressed
sensitivity in disarray
and i'm causing hurt without a conscious mind

i'm shouting loud in mind
but i guess, it's good to leave it that way
keeping much words unspoken...