Reinitialisation

.Reinitialisation.

it's been more than a mth since i last updated tis blog. well, i guess i need to inject some life back into it.

so. training has been reinitiated. i've started training today. n man, does it feel great to b back. (zong2 yu1 chong2 chu1 jiang1 hu2 le4...)

it's been abt 8 mths since i "terminated" my training. n w today's reinitialisation, it sure is a surprising one. considering e fact that i havent train for 8 mths, my stability was quite well maintained, w some dry shots shaking a little here n there. well, i would consider today's training pretty fine. (though i wouldnt consider that to b true abt e training time, cos it's 2 bucks/hr. man, tis is e "real life" version of LAN gaming...haha)

ok. so now i'm stuck in e state of not having a jacket, bcos of that stupid "D" mistake. (to those who dn understand. it's abt my shooting jacket with my initials spelled in quite a "exquisite" way. so to change it from e actual "exquisite" form back to e normal form, it had to b sent back to korea. so in other words, it's gna take a while to come back. but as it is at tis time, it shld return by 2wks later, or even sooner - e nxt wk.) so in order words, i'm only training w my shooting pants ,shooting inner, n shooting boots. haiz. my reinitialisation got off to such a pathetic start.

but anyway, i dn think it really matters a lot. considering that i can probably only do dry-firing for tis wk juz to get accustomed back to my position, it's fine i supposed. (i muz say it is kinda boring to dry fire every session, but juz tis session today, i could c how much i've lost touch w my shooting. my processes were all screwed up. man, i couldnt remb much of my visualisation process.)

n w a 601 rifle, in which its cheek block cannot b decanted at an angle PLUS its buttplate cannot b adjusted as well, it's gna b a bit of a challenge to overcome tis. (e buttplate can only b extended by adding pieces of 'smthing' to extend e length. i dno wad they call that smthing, so dn ask me.)

another surprising fact was, when i wore e marksmen hse pants, i could still feel it's kinda stiff but not as stiff as b4.(considering that marksmen hse gears hav alrdy loosen up a lot in terms of e stiffness, including e addition of a lot of holes, to loosen up e material.) if i compared it to deling's stiffness, marksmen hse gears r still much stiffer.
hmmm...interesting. hahahaha.

well i shall end here. training will b slightly more intensive tmrw. 2hrs! hahaha!

valentines

happy valentines day

well well, 1st thing off is e O lvl results. as i've said (in my previous entry) i'm practically numb or cant b bothered w my results alrdy. though it came out w a L1R5: 10, i wasnt really feeling happy or great. yes it's a gd score, but do i even care? nah... i wouldnt deny i tear that day too but those tears, not one was tears of happiness, but instead of gratitude. gratitude towards all e teachers, towards all my close frens supporting me all e way, n towards my hardwork.(although i wun really call it hard, cos i did slack a lot...hahaha...)

that ends e O result thingy...

nxt. e updated version of new yr resolutions. or might as well make it, CNY resolutions, since cny is ard e corner.

1) Get into NP BIT
2) Break personal best of 572
3) Work my way towards NTT in tis yr
4) Finish learning C++ b4 April..haha
5) n of cos, help her if she needs me. wadever; whenever; wherever...

last, of cos, tis is e only part taz related to e title...HAHAHA...lol
valentines today rite? but wad is there for me to do. nth. haiz. besides wishing her happy valentines, i've got nth to give her. n worse still, sore throat's back to haunt me after many many mths...let's say....6 mths? n worse of e worst, it happens juz b4 CNY...damn it. e hell am i gna eat all those goodies. darn...gotta cure tis within 2 days time. ARGH!!!!

hmmm...it seems tis is e 1st valentine that i actually get sore throat..haha....LOLS...
[muz b those 9 packets of curry twisties + big pack jack n jill potato chips that i've been gobbling up for e past 9 days. damn it, i guess i overshot my limit.]

well anyway, to her again n to all, a Happy Valentines Day!!!

prelude to O results

"prelude" to release of 'O' results

well. results r gonna b out nxt wk. that is wad seems to b true. whether it really is? i dno. exact date? dn even ask. n i'm not bothered by these results a bit. not a bit at all. to wadever results that is gonna b on my cert. i seriously cant give a damn. good. bad. avg. wadever can b printed. i cant b bothered.

although i cant b bothered by that piece of paper w numbers printed on it, my mind is yet bothered by one other thing. closely linked to e word: RESULT. it has been quite a few mths ever since i stop takin' on e pace of life in e kind of education here. n instead of wasting time at home in these few mths, i took up education in my own perspective. educating my ownself solely w a library bk. it was a big difference. e two kinds of education, one really learns, n e one juz kills ur chance to learn.

how pathetic is it to c such a failing education here. esp asia. or shld i say everywhere? e whole of tis world. such competitive comparing of results, such intensive drilling to get "perfect" grades. is that wad u call learning? is that wad u call education? NO. NOT AT ALL. & NVR. doin all tis juz to lose ur ownselves in process of such pathetic competition juz to get that stupid WORTHLESS PIECE of BLARDIE USELESS paper w some DUMB ALPHABETS N NUMBERS. hahaha. humans. arent u becoming such a slave to tis kind of system? arent u becoming more of an idiot than someone who has a brain to live for themselves?

for all i know, i could as well spend some cash on tech n paper to print one useless paper myself. who needs those pathetic papers from e ministry. so wad if e ministry is doin all those bullshit to change from being result-oriented? goddammit, is it even taking a blardie effect? no.

for all those idiots out there, question urself man. u think u r really learning? or r u juz there sitting in sch, mugging real hard every single day, juz for better grades? wad do u really wan in e end? do u even think tis kind of education here is even learning? well. to a very small extent, probably some content u studied in e txtbk gets retained in ur brain.

"it" talks abt focussing on thinking, prob-solving, wadever u name it that uses ur brain. wad does it end up in e end? mugging! mug b4 u even do that.

waz so god damn impt abt that stupid so-called results? wad does it prove? that u r e best? that u r brainiest? that u can think god damn well? that u can hav e best job? that u r VERY academically-inclined?

so wad? even if u r? how much do u learn at end? how much do u gain out of learning? for all that stupid worthless certs? is it even worth to sacrifice ur own learning to get gd results? n for ur info, gd results doesnt necessary equals to learning e most, esp in tis case, in tis country where e system is so unfit of e word: education.

n for all u know, parents play a blardie big part in "brainwashing" their children's mindset. if e parents keep on havin that preconception these days that results r everything, prepare to regret it. results r worthless. it proves nth. e process is wad counts.

as a sportsman myself, e outcome was smething not to b considered at all. n as a sportsman, i'm sure that competition is a key thing. but i can say. competition in sports n in education(or workforce) are two very different things. e competition in sports is something enjoyed, something healthy, something beneficial. but of cos, unless some freaks take it to e extreme, then it'll b bad. as for education, y shld one even bother to even compete? waz e pt? education n learning. it's for one's own improvement. y shld there b any competition? resulting to only segregation between e upper class n e lower class, which in tis case e upper class r e academically inclined ones n e lower class e not so good ones. n tis again, forms e preconception that e academically inclined r those that will succeed in their life, those that arent they'r goners. that is so NOT TRUE.

so. humans out there. go out n find urself. live for urself. not for grades. n change e world, redefine wad learning really is n take that action. learning isnt grades, n it shall nvr b. it shld b enjoyed rather than b a torture.[my assumption: it is true for most(say abt 95%) students that it's a torture, probably only those minority r really those who r really born w those study brains.]